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Diane Ashton: Hard-won wisdom
Esme

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Posted by Esme on Dec 28, 2008 at 04:33 PM

     

Moms, please welcome our latest Mom of the Week:

 

Diane Ashton

 

mow-ashton-mediumedit1.jpg picture by EsmeInfanteNii

Diane Ashton — with her son, Geoff, and daughter, Lindsey.

 

 

Here is Diane's story:

 

There was a time when motherhood did not feel like that happy state of lore for Diane Ashton — she suffered from postpartum anxiety and depression.

 

But Ashton later turned that terrible experience into a positive by founding PPD Support HI, a support group for parents with similar challenges.

 

“With her superb listening skills and fantastic sense of humor, she operates the PPD hotline — anyone can call her with PPD-related questions,” wrote Karena McCue, who nominated Ashton for Mom of the Week. “She also facilitates a weekly support group where women can share their stories and talk face-to-face. She is a font of information and resources about PPD and works daily to educate our community about this often misunderstood condition.”

 

 

Quick facts and thoughts from Diane Ashton:

 

Age: “50-plus.”

 

Occupation: Founder, PPD Support HI, a group for parents with pregnancy- and postpartum-related mood/anxiety challenges (www.ppdsupporthi.org)

 

Resides: Central O‘ahu

 

Grew up in: Vancouver, Canada

 

Family stats: Married; children Geoff, 19, and Lindsey, 14

 

Activities/organizations/honors: Postpartum Support International (PSI) Hawaii co-coordinator, Pacific region coordinator, and Web site support; National Association of Social Workers  

 

List up to five adjectives that describe you: “Empathic, passionate, thoughtful, funny, competent.”

 

What do you think are the toughest and greatest things about being a mom? "One of the toughest things about being a mom, especially a new mom, was overcoming the idealistic image of motherhood that is portrayed everywhere. Motherhood either looks perfect, as shown in commercials, or literally crazy, as portrayed on national newscasts. It's mostly somewhere in the middle.

 

"One of the greatest things about being a mom is how much learning about being a parent is a two-way street. Before I had children, I thought I'd be the one teaching, when in fact my kids have taught me so much more, and in ways I never imagined."

 

Do you have a favorite book, song and/or movie? "Just one book, song or movie?  No — there are too many good ones, and for so many different reasons. I used to think the ideal 'heaven on earth' was a library.  Then came the Internet."

 

When you have a chance to relax, what do you do? "Read, write, chat with friends in person or online. Go to movies with another movie mom. Body board (oooh, I really want us to go body boarding over the break!)."

 

Do you have a mom role model? If so, who is she and why do you admire her? "Not just one — a conglomerate of my mom, my mother-in-law and a couple of parenting teachers. I admire my mom and mother-in-law for the parents they were to us growing up. The parenting teachers brought added elements that weren't commonly taught in my mom's day: active listening, logical consequences and positive parenting. "

 

What life lessons do you hope to leave with your children? “How to ‘play well with others,’ because being smart is good but useless if you can’t play well with others.”

 

What advice would you give to a new mom? “ ‘Dust bunnies can wait’ is the line from a poem that was in a notebook I got as a participant in a weekly mommy group. The philosophy of the poem and the friendship and support of other moms are two things I think every mom needs. Nap when baby naps, enjoy baby’s growth and joy every day, and do it with mom friends.”

 

 

"Essay section":

 

It is so scary making a call for help when you are a mom who isn’t having the motherhood experience you hoped for, when you maybe feel like a bad mom, when you feel overwhelmed, or when perhaps you’ve had some scary thoughts popping in to mind.

 

Many moms call me and initially apologize for calling, or for “bothering” me. The truth is, I feel very honored to receive their calls. They trust me enough, at some point — a total stranger — to hear their stories, often told through tears.

 

When you’re going through and feeling things that no one really talks about and finally hear something that sounds like or acknowledges your own experience, there’s a feeling of such relief — you’re not alone!  (You’re really not, although it can feel like it.) This is not your fault. And you will feel like yourself again.

 

In 1994, I felt quite alone (and like I was “going crazy”), even with extended family around with support. But it wasn’t until Oprah’s show discussed “postpartum depression” (PPD) in 2001 that I finally got a name for that dreadful “thing” my family and I went through when my daughter was about 9 months old. I immediately I hit the Internet, thirsting to finally make some sense out of it all. After about 12,000 online discussions about PPD, and with some encouragement, I started PPD Support HI (PPDsupportHI.org <http://www.ppdsupporthi.org/> ). 

 

Taking phone calls and emails, giving support, information and education, and facilitating a weekly support group, we offer the things I did not find readily during my own postpartum struggle. We even find and share laughter.

 

Thanks to participating in some PPD education events with Rosemary Adam-Terem (PhD) and Marya Grambs (Mental Health America of Hawaii), many new mothers are referred from a variety of Hawaii agencies.  But if you’re a new mom who is struggling, call or email me directly, like Karena, my dear nominator did (humble hugs and many mahalos!!) over a year ago.  I'm truly happy to help.



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DianeA

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 on Dec 28, 2008 at 07:10 PM

  

  

You know what's funny?  I was so darn sure I was just "dealing with stress 'creatively'" that I probably haven't used the word "suffered" to describe my experience.  Endured.  Had pp challenges.  Overcame.

 

This may be like when I was at one of the parent expos a few years ago--clown/balloon lady on our left side, really cute kids t-shirts on our right side... passers-by worried about stopping to talk.  I would have done the same, had I been walking by, pregnant and looking forward to a birth like they show in the birth ed movies or on the birthing shows now.  ...My kids' births were both pretty darn good; my daughter's being a terrific birth.  PPD didn't start there.

 

A miscarriage (between kids) probably factored in quite a bit--for the first months I was scared that the pregnancy wouldn't stick.  Thank goodness for my OB.  She gave me an ultra-sound every time I went in for months, and finally I felt I could just let go.  The choice to not get an amnio brought that home even more.  An amnio would tell only "yes" or "no" about there being Down Syndrome.  What kind of information was that?  I didn't find it was the kind I wanted; unless it could tell me mild or somewhere along the way to profound I wasn't too keen on finding out.  I'd worried enough for one pregnancy.

 

People--moms with "PPD", moms without "PPD", people--want to know what causes it.  So far, it's still looking like many factors contribute.  Biological, psychological, sociological.  They can add up and up and then something is just a bit too much and mom is crying over everything.  Or in an angry fury for something that would normally not cause her to blink an eye.  For me, I think I must have held my breath a bit, from the time of the miscarriage until... I don't know, maybe when Geoff and his playmates went to kindergarten.  His playmates' moms were my support group, and had been since before they were a year old.  When all our eldest children went off to kindergarten, we moms were each going through a big transition.  Our weekly get together became sporatic for a time.  The end of Geoff's kindergarten day was in the middle of Lindsey's nap.  I wouldn't allow myself to fall asleep for her nap, in case I overslept and left the poor boy stranded alone at kindergarten.

 

I'd also taken on an idea that sounded wise to me at the time I took it--to keep Lindsey out of any babysitting until she could talk.  ....it was not a parent that suggested this idea.  It sure sounded wise.  But gosh, Geoff had gone to a sitter a day or so a week from the time he was three months old.  I thought I could do it this time.  --do it?  Maybe I took the words too literally, but no babysitting meant none.  I know some moms can do this.  Some have to.  And, well, I DID do it, but at great cost to me.  To our whole family, even reaching extended family here and on the mainland.

 

Thank goodness for Brooke Shields and her bravely publishing her own story with postpartum anxiety, in "Down Came the Rain."  She really captures the experiences I had, and so many other moms as well.  Even Tom Cruise helped the cause, while he tried to put her down for taking antidepressants.  He got people talking about "PPD" in regular conversations, at least for the time.  Everyone had an opinion.

 

I'm happy to answer any questions, here or in a PM, etc.  Or share my favorite information links or tell you about my kids. 

 

Thanks for having me.  Thanks for nominating me, Karena.  And thank you HawaiiMomsLikeMe and Esme. 

 

  

Colomaohana

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 on Dec 28, 2008 at 09:52 PM

  

  

Yaaayy!!  Congratulations, Diane!  Well deserved.....

 

Love the picture!!! 



Proud Mommy of 7 Keiki!

*aka 7Flips*

  

comadre

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 on Dec 28, 2008 at 11:04 PM

  

  

Hey, hey !!!! 

Congratulations Mommy  

 

 


" Action may not always bring happiness; but there is not happiness without action."       Benjamin Disraeli. 

  

luvnbnmama22

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 on Dec 29, 2008 at 07:29 AM

  

  

Yay Diane!!

So well deserved, I can't find the words to say but I'm so glad that I've met you through this site.  You're definitely someone I know I can call when I need to and it's so wonderful that mama's have someone/somewhere to call when they are going through PPD

Best wishes for much success, happiness and health for you and your `ohana



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That's the key to having it all: stop expecting it to look like what you thought it was going to look like.

 

-- Cindy Chupack

  

tripleS

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 on Dec 29, 2008 at 08:40 AM

  

  

woo-hoo Diane!!  Congratulations!  love the pic too!!!



Life is TOO SWEET to be bitter!

 

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DDAbbymom

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 on Dec 29, 2008 at 08:44 AM

  

  

This is my first time posting. 

Thank you Diane for sharing what you went through to help others get through PPD.

I had PPD with my first child until he was about 1 years old.  It was dreadful and no one could put a finger on it, except I was different and it affected everyone around me.

I had a second child and since I knew what to watch out for, I overcame it and very happy with my 5 month old daughter now.

Mahalo!

 

  

DianeA

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 on Dec 29, 2008 at 11:09 AM

  

  

Hey ladies, thanks!! 

Hi DDAbbymom, I'm glad you signed in to post.  And very happy that you recovered from your bout of PPD.  It DOES affect the whole family and people around us, doesn't it?  I'm glad too that things are going well with your daughter.  I hope you'll make yourself at home here on HawaiiMomsLikeMe.  Everyone is really nice.  Check out the Mommy meet ups--there's at least one during the holiday break now too.

 

For anyone going through this, or even (like me, YEARS later) when it's passed, I found reading and posting online with others who had similar experiences, very helpful.  ppdsupportpage.com  And the support group is available too, to come and talk through your experience with other moms in the same boat.

 

tripleS, Lindsey said Geoff looks dorky in the picture.  He does look cuter IRL, but then I'm a bit biased. 

 

  

MamaMia808

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 on Dec 29, 2008 at 03:00 PM

  

  

Congratulations, Diane!  It takes a strong woman to not only face her truth, but turn that struggle into something wonderful -- creating a vital resource for others and for letting others know that it is okay to feel what they are feeling but there is a way to get help.  I think you're amazing! 

  

Cenn

2560 posts

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 on Dec 29, 2008 at 11:00 PM

  

  

Diane, congratulations!  I am so proud of all that you have done and continue to do for other moms! 



Smile!!!

  

 

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